Enthusiasm

I was walking along the waterfront in Vancouver the other day, just taking a stroll. It was my brother’s birthday and we were at McMenamins to celebrate. We had only made it a short distance when we came to the spot where the osprey like to nest. Its not much to look at. A large, spiky looking nest perches atop of an old river piling pole and thats about it. As usual, there were some birds in it, but they only caught my attention for a short while.

What distracted me was the old man staring intently at the three birds. It wasn’t overly warm, yet he had his shirt off and was holding it in one hand. What remained was a pair of khaki shorts and flip flops. I immediately took him to be some wacky, bird enthusiast. He had the stiff posture of someone who had been standing there for a while. My family had stopped for a brief moment to acknowledge the birds, as we always do, and then attempted to continue on our walk. However, this shirtless old man suddenly seemed very keen to impart to us any and all information he had concerning these osprey.”It’s a mother and two young ones!” he all but shouted at us, despite the fact we were already walking away. The group halted, glanced at the nest and then back at this curious figure before us. We mumbled back,”Oh, yes, uh hu, look at that…” We were just about to turn when he spoke again, “They’re trying to fly!” he exclaimed.

That caught my interest and I turned for a better look at the nest. Sure enough, two of the birds appeared to be attempting to fly. They would stretch out their wings and let the brisk breeze gently lift them up a few feet above the massive nest, hover for a few seconds and then come back down. Now that he had a captive audience, the man spoke again, “They’ve been trying to fly for a while now but all they do is hover.” He apparently found this amusing because he laughed before repeating himself, “All they do is hover.” His words were followed up by erratic hand gestures that would have symbolized flight, except for the shirt that still dangled in his hand and got in his way.

His message sufficiently communicated, he turned back to stare avidly at the nest. His silence was short lived. A sudden gust of wind blew by and almost snatched one of the hovering eagles out of the safety of its home. “Did you see that? He almost did it!” the man exclaimed with his peculiar enthusiasm, “but he didn’t really want to, eh? The wind almost took him!” Laughing again, he continued to watch the fledglings.

The birds were getting tired at this point and stopped hovering for a few moments. We waited to see if they would start up again, but after a few moments decided we would continue along the path. I had turned and was about to be on my way when I suddenly heard my grandma give a little yell, “Look, look!” I spun around just in time to see one of the fledglings suddenly soaring out of the nest. He was fiercely battling the wind and eventually made a shaky landing on a piling not too far from his nest. I felt like applauding! Its not every day you get to see the first flight of a young eagle. Everyone was grinning except for the old man who was ecstatic, “Did you see? Did you see? He did it!” he shouted, jumping up and down. The happiness was etched into every line on his face. He was as proud of that bird as he would have been for his own child. Laughing, he continued, “For days, for days, they sit there and try to hover, try to fly!” This accompanied by more erratic hand movements, shirt flapping in the wind. He continued to laugh happily as he turned back to the nest to see if the other bird would be as successful.

We too were now on the edge of our seats. We waited for a long time, but the last fledgling only made feeble attempts to continue hovering. Eventually we had to leave and as we turned to go, the bird was still struggling to get off the ground. That old man still stood there, watching and laughing at every small victory and I knew that when the last bird finally left the nest he would be there, jumping up and down, shirt flapping. The birds weren’t the only ones flying that day.

-N

Nights like these

Its nights like these. When the rain has stopped its comforting drizzle against my window, the full moon has moved on to be reborn, and wind has left for grander adventures and everything is drenched in silence. Its nights like these that your existence threatens to overtake you.

Such an easy thing to take for granted, ones existence. Breathing, moving, feeling; so normal and yet anything but. Blood courses through your veins, life as physical entity. Your muscles tense and relax, the strength of your very soul portrayed. As you breath, absorbing the world around you, you live. On nights like these, fragility is a foreign word and weakness is forgotten as though it never was. This is when you discover the part of you that fights to survive in these lifeless places in which we allow ourselves to exist. Its nights like these you forget you will die.

People like to talk about the best years of their lives. If I’ve learned anything from more recent days its that none can be the greatest because they are all so vastly different. When I was young I expected nothing could get better. Nothing big mattered because we couldn’t quite get it. Life was one continuous moment and whatever we felt like playing at that particular moment, we played. Didn’t need more, or less, than that. As we grew older though, I began to discover that there was more than my own personal game going on; much more. I began to truly discover emotions and feelings I had only heard about before. To be honestly the most excited you’d ever been. More frightened than you ever believed possible. Rampant anger, jealousy and joy. I hear my younger friends speaking the words I used to say then. Words about how they will never get old, never fall into that abyss of adulthood for how could we loose this raw energy we had now? Little do they suspect what waits for them around the corner. Instead of loosing your new found world, you discover what each part of it truly holds. Nothing new, everything just becomes deeper and stronger. To discover the endless depth and capacity you have for pure joy, honest love and yes, heartbreaking pain; nothing can compare. I used to say I could never leave, now I know I would never go back.

Now, I cannot claim to know what lies around the next corner on this road of existence but I can know one thing. I am alive and by God can I feel it. Particularly on nights like these.

-N

Ramblings

…I must be a very basics oriented person. I am discovering that I have little patience for complicated twists and turns. Procedures annoy me and sequence is tiring. I think thats why I am attracted to things like running and writing. To run, you simply run as far as you can; to write; you simply write whatever is in your head. Shoes and pencils are optional (You can debate me about the pencil but I once wrote an entire journal entry with a piece of ash from a campfire). Both running and writing are driven in me by something deeper. The energy that sends me flying down the trail is the same energy that sends my pen flying across the page. Pent up, exhilarating, uncontrollable, pure energy in various forms and emotions driving my most basic needs. Sometimes I feel like I could rule the world! Imagine my excitement when I suddenly realized, I do.

Looking out at the road rushing under my feet, feeling the wind as it caresses me, the trees whispering my name, the mountains singing to me of strength like they always have. I look around at the world surrounding me and I am struck by the realization that it is all there for me! Like a playground built for children, the world sits in wait for me to explore. Some adventure can be found at home for sure, but what a waste to leave whole continents, full of treasures beyond our realms of belief, sitting there waiting for you. Yes, the world is mine, as it is yours! Ours to explore and to adventure, reveling in its vastness. The incomprehensible distance from here to the stars, the whole of the planet and everything beyond, we are given this one life to see all that we can.

Lets go!

-N

Still, still, still

Christmas is awesome! Loads of fun, you get to see relatives, hang out with friends and enjoy time tested traditions that are unique to every family. Getting a tree, putting up lights, enjoying the full flung chaos of a packed house, cooking meals you only get to eat during this time of the year and hearing music you only get to hear for one month out of the whole year are just the beginnings of what makes this cold, rainy, blustery month bearable.

However, my favorite part about Christmas is sitting still. A comfy chair by a blazing fire, lights dimmed down, maybe some music in the background, christmas tree all lit up in the corner, candles flickering on the table. Cuddled up under a warm blanket, in brand new pajamas, way to happy and excited to sleep, you just get to sit still and melt into the atmosphere. Watching family members move about the house, listening to conversations that float through the air, smelling delicious christmasy smells, thinking not your own thoughts but listening to the thoughts around you and simply feeling christmas envelop you in its soft, loving arms, bringing you back to a timeless place of love and memories. Thats my favorite part.

What do you like best about this time of the year?

-N

Why the Beatles rock

I have never been a huge fan of the British pop sensation the Beatles. Their music has just never been able to strike that chord within me that demands my  musical ear and attention. I can admire that they helped bring rock and roll into our country and are a vital part of our culture and a huge influence on our music, but hey, doesn’t mean I have to like them.

However, I have friends that like the Beatles and, through music exchanges of dubious legality, some of their tunes have ended up on my iPod. Driving in the car, I will allow the occasional Beatles song to play through without skipping over it, however I never sing along or make any effort to pay attention to it.

Now, the other day I had two of my friends in the car and we were driving along after a fun evening of hanging out, music playing on the stereo. Suddenly, Hard Days Night came blaring through the speakers and I found that we were all singing along. “This is odd..” I thought to myself, ” I don’t even like the Beatles, but suddenly I know all the words to this song!” And indeed I did. We sang that repetitious rhythm all the way through, at the top of our lungs, having a blast. This is when I realized why the Beatles rock. Not because its intelligent, or original or anything that special (in my opinion) but because everybody knows the songs. Everyone can sing along with the Beatles and everyone will have a good time. I still don’t find them particularly musical, but hey, I don’t mind if they stay on my iPod… for now.

-N

Best Hot Chocolate in the Entire World

Yes, it has been found! The BEST Hot Coco I have ever (and you will ever) have!

Moonstruck Chocolate is in downtown Portland. I had never heard of it before, but my boyfriend and I wanted something to go along with our Escape from New York pizza (yes, hot chocolate and pizza are a wondrous combination) so we went and checked it out.

The delectable aroma that greets you when you first walk in the door is your first clue that you’ve stumbled on something awesome. The glass display case shows off their massive assortment of wonderful looking chocolate treats. Check out the drink menu and you will find that they have not one, not two, but four different hot chocolates. Regular milk chocolate, dark chocolate, a mexican hot chocolate and a mayan hot chocolate. This last one has all the same spices as a mexi coco but it uses dark chocolate instead. We each ordered a mayan hot chocolate and went and sat down to await its arrival. They serve it to you in a nice mug on a saucer with a piece of chocolate on the side (I used this to aid me in eating the mound of real whipped cream on top of the drink). How can I describe it? It was rich, it was fluffy, it was heaven; it was almond, cinnamon and other delicious flavors blended perfectly with the dark creamy chocolate to create the best hot coco either of us had ever had. Yuuummm…

Try to keep this a secret though guys. If it gets out that they have the best hot coco in the world, I’ll have to be waiting in giant lines to get my new favorite treat!

Viva la chocolate.

-N

Over the River and Through the Woods

The road to my grandma’s house in incredibly cliche. Just as the age old song depicts, we do indeed trek over a river (if you count the sad little creek that continues to trickle persistently between the two neighborhoods) and through the woods (woods that frame the road up the hill). Lacking the horse who knows the way to carry our nonexistent sleigh, we instead bundle up into the back seat of our station wagon for the 4 minute trip to grandma’s house. This trip is so short that our car is just beginning to warm up by the time we pull into the driveway…

Enter the warm, cozy house, delicious scents of holiday baking greeting our noses just as grandma greets us with hugs. Ahh… relax. Have a cup of coco! Crack nuts in front of the blazing fire. Listen to the age old record spinning out it’s christmas music on the record player. Light the Advent candles, sing a song. Holding your family’s hands as Grandpa prays. Digging into a delectable dinner of  some amazing, time tested recipe that Grandma worked on all day. Exclamations of admiration. Being the fullest you’ve ever been, since last Christmas. Cup of coffee, slice of pie. Continue the exclamations of admiration. Lean back, listen, talk, stories. Some of them you’ve heard a million times before. Some of them are new. Blending of the young and the old. Tradition and new explorations.

It’s Christmas Time.

=)

-N

What is in a name?

So, this blog needs a name… as  you can see its still a “working title”.  What are YOUR ideas?

-N

Day 1.5

So, the day before yesterday marked the start of my three part marathon training program! As usual, it was a rough start. Due to other obligations I didn’t have a free hour until about 6:00 and by this time it was dark out. Stupid daylight savings adjustments… Lucky for me, I had just read this article and felt inspired to continue despite my lack of time management. Thus, I found myself in my  black winter running apparel plus gloves and a really dorky headband, striding confidently out the door to begin my adventure.

100 ft into it, I realized the Garmin’s batteries had died… “Ok, no biggy, I’ll just use my watch” I thought to myself and went back to get my watch. Again, I ventured out. It was very cold and dark, but it wasn’t too bad until I reached the pedestrian path that runs parallel to the parkway by my house. Because the traffic is so far away, I didn’t feel the need for reflective gear, which I don’t have. Unfortunately, that decision also lead me to forgo the headlamp as well; mostly because I don’t have one of those either. So there I was, running in the freezing cold, unable to see two feet in front of me, like some kind of blind urban ninja.

I made it probably 1/4 of a mile before something in the bushes moved beside me and I nearly jumped out of my skin. There was nothing there of course, but I was suddenly coursing with adrenaline. Another 50 ft up the path I realized I was passing the spot where the homeless folk like to crawl past the fence and live in the dark, creepy looking woods outside the neighborhood. Before I had time to calm myself down, my feet had already turned themselves around and were heading in double time back towards the streets with lights. An easy run turns into a sprint. At least I got out the door…

That however, was 2 days ago. That was an entirely different person. That was a person who had no sense of preparation or, apparently, self preservation. This time I was prepared! This time I had the time slot saved for my run! This time I was going to train for a marathon properly! This time I was trudging through the icy, pouring rain, in a jacket that was certainly not waterproof, disgruntled dog by my side, wondering what the hell I was doing.

Thus ends day two…

Stay tuned for updates!

-N

Here I Am…

…this is me. There’s no where else on earth I’d rather be.

Hey guys, its me! So here we have a blog, and behind this blog, tapping anxiously at the keyboard, is an aspiring writer. No doubt I’ll be writing about whatever has/is/will be coming into my mind, but I would also love it if I could have your input! My friends are my greatest source of inspiration and I would love to hear about what is on your mind. Send me on missions to find out what the best food cart at the Saturday Market is… give me a keyword and have me write a story about it… give me reviews about your favorite (or least favorite) movies and I can post them along with my own…consider me your own personal freelance journalist!  The possibilities are endless, and that’s kind of the point.

-N